vanessawithlove

 Recently, I’ve been particularly easy to be annoyed.
PMS?
MOOD SWING ?
I don’t know why.
The first person to get my SHIT is BRYAN TAN WEI ZHE.
SORRY BRO!
The second person is GOH AH BEE.
SORRY !

Going Cell group in One hour time. 
Gonna see Meiman soon ! hahaha
She said I AM HER FUNNY FRIEND .
And everytime i see her ,somehow i feel so much better knowing she will be there for me . 
But i feel sick and feverish i guess it was due to getting caught in the rain yesterday after bible study  . 
PLS STOP RAINING PLS !
I DONT WANNA GET CAUGHT IN THE RAIN ANYMORE .
RAIN RAIN GO AWAY ! PLS LET THE SUN COME OUT TO SHINE !

21 more days to 26 Nov.

Sometime i wonder
what is the point of remembering that day.
Its was a day i feel so sad and hurt. 
When i just cant stop crying . 
And when i start thinking ,the pain feel so raw and its hurt so much still. 
Sometime i wonder 
when i feel so sad and cry 
Do you even feel the same ?
Or am i just being a fool here ?
Sometime i wanna believe we could JUST BE FRIENDS 
But i try so hard to be your friend. 
Really hard if you really wanna know .
This is how i feel TIRED SAD bt DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.


I just wanna say Sometime when a girl shows that she is strong doesnt mean she doesnt cry for you when she goes to bed .
Maybe she is just showing you that she can do without you but actually she cant deep down . She is just good at acting . 

1 NOV 2009
I AM MARRIED TO YVETTE YI WEI .
I LOVE HER LOTS !

2 NOV 2009
DAY ONE
I went to the bank and FINALLY my parents allow me to take ATM card but my mother said she finally alllow me to take it not for me to spend but to deposit money in every month .
I was like thinking i can hardly pass each day now how to save money and put in the bank . 
BUT what is most impt is i gt my atm card .
We went to Marina Square eat and shop.
We both bought 4 pairs of earrings each =)
Then we went Suntec and have our dinner ,we went to make a wish at the FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH .
I hope my wish will come true.
FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH PLS MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE !
We went to CAREFOUR to shop too !
And i bought 2 boxes of breads for my family to eat !


3 NOV 2009
DAY TWO
I went to see the doctor to take my medi.
Then i went Dhobty to meet YIWEI .
We went to YAMAHA to see guitar but i dont like any guitar there .
I have no clue about guitar thing.
We went to have dinner at MOS BURGER after thinking for a long time .
And I bought cafe cartel cakes for my family to eat .

 It been awhile since i fall sick.
Now, i am sick.
Every parts of me just dont feel good .
I sleep and wake up for dont know how many times.
How am i gonna have enough sleep if this goes on .
Guess i am gonna see the doctor later and if i able to take it i will go for the MJ movie.
If i cant i guess i just have to ask someone who is free to go and take my place =)

Yesterday after service we had BGM bazaar !!!
Went to SEH TING chalet to say HAPPY 21 st BIRTHDAY after we went to town to catch a movie ! 
We watch PANDORUM!

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The only thing i can do is :
I will patiently wait ,even if i feel like a fool ........

20 OCT
Went to eat lunch with Yvette at city hall.She WANTS to eat at The Mahanttan Fish Market.
We went to eat but end up not finishing the foods.
!!!!!!!!SURPRISE SURPRISE !!!!!!!!
Then we went to Bugis to have steamboat, to celebrate Yvette's birthday with Jacq ,Melvin ,Jelin ,Shu yun and the rest .

Sat ,
Went service and wanted to surprise Yvette with a birthday cake but fail .
End up i am the only person who sing HAPPY BIRTDHAY for her .
MISSION FAIL.
And i guess i saw something which i should not and i feel hurt by it .

Sun,
Went to WEISHAN 21st birthday party at sentosa.

Monday,
Went city hall to celebrate Jaslyn's birthday yesterday=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASLYN!

Later i am going out with my BeSt friend ,YVETTE=)
I cant wait to see her even though sat i just saw her hahaha=)
I LOVE YVETTE YI WEI LOTSSS!

 I am gonna go to bed right after i blog .GOSH !
I left a few hours to sleep before going to go church later. 
When for cg yesterday.
Then when to eat supper with Mar,Meiman and Yee leng.
And my tummy dont feel good right now with the porridge i ate . It was so watery. It is a waste of my money !
I guess sometime people have to think about the words they use when they talk to people. 
Its kinda obvious that if you dont bring benefit to someone, they wont treat you the way you deserve it.
Ps: Realise the difference between an insult and sacarsm. 

I am feeling overwhelmed by all the emotions !
I am just wondering ,wondering....
When words become limited and actions become restricted.
Are they still your FRIENDS ?

 
Skyping with Cheryl Foo at 3am .
Cant believe i am doing this for the past few days .
I dont know if i am gonna be able to make it for morning prayer meeting.
It start at 7am .
GOSH! Bet i will be super duper tired.

 After cg, went to find Cheryl.
Went to eat =)
After than ,we all head home=)
Service in another few more hours =)

 Went Sun tan with Fang =) 
We had fun in the sun wind sun wind.
Thats why we are not very burn .
Haha




Went Rp to celebrate Jasmine Birthday .
We had fun together .
And i am starting to miss secondary life when we see each other 5 days a week in sch =) now we are all busy with our stuffs and hardly we could meet .
Watch SURROGATES with mar ,meiman ,yeeleng,huishan,bryan and darrion =)
I wish i had a Robot too!

BRYAN SAID I GT A THICK SKULL AND I AM STUBBORN! 
HOW NICE MY BEST FRIEND IS =)

 Went out with Yvette today.
We went to town to get the stuffs that i need to do for the birthday cards.
And walk to city hall .
WE WENT HOME WITH QUITE ALOT OF DIARYssssssssss
Hor Yvette ?
Hahahaha
Waiting for yvette to upload the pics=)

CANT WAIT TO GO SUN TAN WITH FANG TML !!!!
Woo hooo =)

 05102009
This is the first time i am in control of the class.
I was very excited when i meet them,but once i am going to start the class.I AM STRESS.
They are hyper active kids.
And because the parents sit there and stare at me makes me more stress than ever.
IF i scold the kids , i dont know if the parents will scold me !
So i have to be like super nice to them .But they wont listen to ME !
STRESS!
And after class , my friend will tell me what i should do and should not do.
My friend told me that because i was too nice and friendly the kids took advantages of it .
How sad was that .
But i just could bring myself to scold them .
They are so cute.
But well, i got to learn to control the class if not i think every week i teach them they will just keep playing with me .
And my friend told me if my eye sight get worse . I will have to give up the dance class. 
I am sad but i know this will happen.
I am gonna see a doctor real soon .
Cause i know once my left eyes start to blur even more i couldnt see the kids on my left when i teach dancing.
Thats when i will have to give up the class.

When GOODS THINGS happen, so does BAD THINGS happen too. 


Met Fang at my house here for beancurd at night.
She is my very sweet friend.
She knows my eye sight is having a slight prob she is worry , she travel from Tamp to my house here just to spend time with me .
I am touched .
FANG THANKS SO MUCH !
DONT WORRY !
EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.

Then , we went to a LAZY ASS house .
And HE NEEDS A HAIR CUT MAN! OMG HIS HAIR IS LIKE .......
ANDY ANG !
He didnt want to travel to come and meet us cause he said he bath already .
So Fang and me travel to his house .
And i keep laughing damm loud at house .
Thanks God his parents never scold hahaha.
And He told me this : In a relationship you cannot give your all cause end up you will have nothing .
I agree . Cause I know how its feel when you gave your all and end up with nothing but SHIT !

I heard something from someone but i dont know if that is true .
Cause from the start i know you are not a person whom is like this .
But i dont know what got into you ,you protray yourself desperate .
WHAT HAPPEN?
Am i suppose to believe what i heard or believe that you are not like that ?
I seriously dont know .
You broke my trust and what i hear make me worse it makes me doubt you even more.
You are my friend a friend whom i really treasure alot.
I guess i am lost once again .

Just got back from dinner with Bryan and Cheryl .
We had dinner at Bishan.
I love them.
Even though Bryan keep saying that i am stupid ,dumb and stuffs.
THEY ARE VERY DEAR TO MY HEART I LOVE THEM LOTS .
I AM VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH BRYAN ,KAI AND CHERYL.



I dont know whats happening to my left eyes .
Its starting to blur.
I am scare.
But well, nothing is gonna change what had happen . 
I am just gonna teach my dear kids dance. 
I hope i can shift my attentation to my dear kids. 
Kids , here i come !



" Take comfort in knowing that I, no matter how much you think I’ve got it good, I am completely miserable. And I will continue to be for awhile now. I don’t know if this sadness will ever go away. You had him, you still do and that is so much more than what I can say for myself. He loves you, he will always love you and that is more than I can say for myself; I have been forgotten, swept under the rug, left behind by the one person I gave my all to.  Please don’t forget that. I want you to know that, I just want you to know i still loved you"