vanessawithlove

TO MY BEST FRIEND I HAVE IN MY LIFE

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRYAN TAN WEI ZHE!

ALL THE BEST IN YOU FYP THIS YEAR !
MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!
THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT AND WONDERFUL FRIEND TO ME .
I AM JUST BLESS TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE.
THANKS FOR BEING UNDERSTANDING AND PATIENT TOWARDS ME.
CAUSE WITH YOU BEING PATIENT TOWARDS ME.
WE STILL HAVE OUR FRIENDSHIP.
I GUESS WITHOUT YOU BEING PATIENT
THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAD IS GONNA BE A PAST .
THANKS .
YOU ARE A TREASURE I HAVE FOUND.
SOMEONE I WILL TREASURE ,LOVE AND CARE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

WHATEVER I HAVE DONE AND DO , YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE A BEST FRIEND IN MY LIFE .
I REALLY CARE FOR .
SOMEONE I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILES FOR.
THE EXTRA MILES I WENT , SHOW YOU THAT YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING .
MY BEST FRIEND, I LOVE YOU .





RIGHT NOW,
i dont know how are you feeling
maybe you are irritated
maybe you are angry
maybe you are wondering
maybe you think you are not worth it
maybe you will hate me
all i wanna tell you is that everything i did is because
in my heart ,you are really MY BEST FRIEND
whether i am your best friend or not it doesnt matter
thats not the point
the point is Bryan, you are my best friend.

YOUR PRIDE OVER SOMEONE YOU LOVE
BUT
DONT LOSE SOMEONE YOU LOVE OVER PRIDE.

No matter whats gonna happen or what had happen..
Do you know that ?
I love you still....

I just wanna say I AM GONNA MISS YOU !

YOU HURT ME BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.
I HURT YOU BUT I DONT KNOW IF YOU STILL LOVE ME ?

My Dear Best Friend,

I LOVE YOU MORE DAILY .
I WISH YOU COULD SEE YOURSELF THE WAY I SEE YOU .
AND
I WISH YOU COULD LOVE YOURSELF THE WAY I LOVE YOU.
I WISH YOUR LIFE IS EVERYTHING YOU DESERVE BECAUSE
IN MY OPINION, YOU DESERVE THE WORLD.
I WILL STAND BY YOU FOREVER.
MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BELONG TO YOU .




All i want under my CHRISTMAS TREE is YOU !

When you feel someone close to you slipping away ,at some point you have to let go ....
You have to step aside so they can make their own decisions.
If you need to pick up the pieces afterwards,be there to pick them up .
But if everything turns out okay,be happy and accept it.
Sometimes the hardest thing is knowing how to let a friendship drift,when a little space is all its need.

I AM TIRED .

Everyday i dont look forward for sch.
I drag myself to sch .
I dont know why i dislike sch so much.
Next monday we will have quiz ,and projects coming.
SO FAST.
I hope i am able to cope and manage the SPEED .

Studies is like maintaing a relationship with it .
It needs constant care(reading) .
Having a relationship with it.
It will love you back.
BUT
When you decide to give up, it just keep waiting for you to try it one more time everytime you feel like giving up .


I AM HOLDING ON TO YOUR CHANGING HEART.
29 more days to go.
Will you make up your mind ?
Do you know what you want?
Will you tell me what you feel?
I am waiting.....

BUSINESS OR ARTS?

Which one do i really have a future in?
I LOVE ARTS .
I DONT LIKE BUSINESS.

LOVE WHEN YOU ARE READY NOT WHEN YOU ARE LONELY .

One more week to 26 NOV , I AM SCARE HONESTLY .
I am trying to behave like everything is alright .
Like EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT .
I know it hard but i am trying real hard.

18 DEC 2009
Yiwei date me out at like 1 pm when we usually will meet at 3 plus 4.
And at Starbucks than i realise today is 18 NOV 2009.
Maybe Yiwei knows what does 18 means to me .
Thats why she date me out so early.
THANKS YIWEI I JUST REALISE IT !
Well,I spend my time with YIWEI.
We went to buy buy papersssss at BUGIS.
Hahahaa
Buying things just make me happy.
Then,we had bible study .
And I cant wait for sch camp this friday .
Gonna go with YIWEI.
SAME SCH SAME CLASS !
But i have mixed feeling , like i am somehow excited and feel sian at the same time.
I dont know why .
Maybe i have been away from sch for quite sometime.

I HATE MY LIVEJOURNAL .
I CANT DIRECTLY BLOG THROUGH THE RICH TEXT I HAD TO BLOG THROUGH HTML.
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW ?
HELP ME?

Today , I met Huifang .
We went Little India to thread our eyebrows.
Then,
We had SAKAE SUSHI BUFFET.
We eat until we are SUPPPPPPPPPPEEEEERRRRRRRR FFUUUULLLLL:)

Sometime you are being hurt by someone whom you thought will never hurt you , but when that person does hurt you ,it hurt more than anything else .The pain is way too much for a heart to contain.

Since we cannot change reality ,let us change the eyes which see reality .

I aint feeling so well .
On medi , and i think my body is rejecting FOODS.
Whenever i eat finish my meal i feel sick and wanna puke . 
After hearing some stuffs.
All i know you lie.
Sometime i wonder when will you stop lieing ,do u know you have to say more lie just to cover each lie.
Well , maybe you dont .
But when you keep thinking that you thought and thought ,it is not gonna get you anywhere ,you will get more lost . 


Well Well its 14 more days to 26 NOV .
I dont know how ?
Are you feeling the same as me ?

I had a msn chat with MAR.
Cause i know i cant keep my mouth shut anymore , i cant hide my feeling anymore.
The saddness i feel is over whelming .
I told Mar i hate myself .
I hate that i cant get over this .
I am angry with myself.
Mar said that i feel this sad is cause i love him too much .
Mar said even if i cry its ok , if crying can make me feel better .
If crying is healing .
But how long am i suppose to cry just to get heal GOD ?
But after talking to mar , i feel better.
I will wait for that miracle to happen , waiting and keep waiting . 
And Mar said the sweetest thing to me ,she said she will acc me on that day . 
Thanks Mar . 
I know you have been a AWESOME leader .
Thanks for being there . 

Thanks Yee Leng for acc me through the night.
Thanks Meiman and Seh ting for talking to me .
I know you gals see me cried ,i know its break your heart to see me crying over for the same person .

I KNOW I AM NOT THAT STRONG AFTER ALL .

 Recently, I’ve been particularly easy to be annoyed.
PMS?
MOOD SWING ?
I don’t know why.
The first person to get my SHIT is BRYAN TAN WEI ZHE.
SORRY BRO!
The second person is GOH AH BEE.
SORRY !

Going Cell group in One hour time. 
Gonna see Meiman soon ! hahaha
She said I AM HER FUNNY FRIEND .
And everytime i see her ,somehow i feel so much better knowing she will be there for me . 
But i feel sick and feverish i guess it was due to getting caught in the rain yesterday after bible study  . 
PLS STOP RAINING PLS !
I DONT WANNA GET CAUGHT IN THE RAIN ANYMORE .
RAIN RAIN GO AWAY ! PLS LET THE SUN COME OUT TO SHINE !

21 more days to 26 Nov.

Sometime i wonder
what is the point of remembering that day.
Its was a day i feel so sad and hurt. 
When i just cant stop crying . 
And when i start thinking ,the pain feel so raw and its hurt so much still. 
Sometime i wonder 
when i feel so sad and cry 
Do you even feel the same ?
Or am i just being a fool here ?
Sometime i wanna believe we could JUST BE FRIENDS 
But i try so hard to be your friend. 
Really hard if you really wanna know .
This is how i feel TIRED SAD bt DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.


I just wanna say Sometime when a girl shows that she is strong doesnt mean she doesnt cry for you when she goes to bed .
Maybe she is just showing you that she can do without you but actually she cant deep down . She is just good at acting .